Rage against the scales...

I've taken a rage against the scales. Or is it the scales have taken a rage at me? For the last few weeks I know I've been a few lbs over my target weight, and although I've been tracking, last week I did not exercise - at all, but I've been weighing myself at home and I had gotten back within my target weight - last week I was just in it. By half a pound, so I decided not to weigh in then - just to be safe. Some of you know my financial situation at the minute. I can not be affording to pay to attend weightwatchers. But this morning I stood on the scale to see I was a full 3lbs under the high end of my 5lb either way scale. So I was happy enough to stand on the scale.

That was until I actually stood on the scale in my meeting. To be told that I was 5lbs heavier than that. My scales and the scales in my meeting never differ. I think once or twice they were out by half a pound, but never really anything more. I was truely appalled. I have since went to the scales in my local pharmacy to be told I was half a pound off what I was at home, but still 4.5lbs under my meeting weight. And by the time I got home, two cups of coffee, a bottle of water and a yogurt later, I was up to this. Still under my 5lb either way scale.

Seriously not at all amused. More because I really just do not understand it. Although I have recorded the gain on esource, who offered me a pitiful "how to cope with a gain" article which I'm not even going to link here.
It was St. Patricks Day and I didn't even get drunk. I had half a bottle of wine which was included in my propoint allowance. Frustrating now I'm thinking of what I could have had... but then I suppose what crazy weight would have registered then?

Hello by the way, it's been a wee while again hasn't it? I've been doing loads and loads of uni work and getting no where with it, in fact I should really actually be doing more uni work and not this but I need to get the rant out of me first.

Last week I didn't get a single run done, which means I'm behind in my training in the run up to the marathon. So what I will have to do is for the next 3 weeks, do four runs instead of the usul three. Hopefully that won't be too much of a strain on my legs but I will listen to my body and if it says stop, then I will. I'm not going to push through pain again.

I think I a theme I see in fellow gold members blog posts recently is going to have to come through with me today. Yes, I lost 60lbs of my body weight, yes I look and feel totally awesome most of the time because of it. But getting to goal is not the end. This is a constant journey and I know that I'm going to get a few comments which will be the usual stuff I tell people, that I should just put the gain behind me and push on which is of course what I will be doing. I will track everything I eat this week. My plan of action being to stick to my 29 a day and going only over and into my activity points, I want to keep my weekly points for Saturday as I'm going out on Saturday to a casino night and want to be able to enjoy myself (Although I don't plan on using the entire 49 then, but I want them to be there if I need them). Once you hit your target weight, you're not just 'cured' off all the issues you have with food, I'm lucky that with weightwatchers I have the tools to be able to pull myself back in from a binge (even though there wasn't one this week), and it's just part of the journey to recover and keep going. This happens no matter where in your own journey you are. So keep at it.

Before signing off, heading for a run and settling into housework and then uni work I want to show a few pictures, this banana was in my parents house during the week, it was fused together and cracked me up I thought it wwas so odd. I didn't eat it, though now I regret that because I want to see how it looked inside. My brother said it was funny.

Also had my first hot cross bun of the year (m&s, 5propoints, yum)

Random wee picture of me 'cus I feel like it's been a wee while - Guinness shirt on in work and silly pose on my gub.

Gav got me flowers yesterday (I'm a sucker for flowers, roses mostly, but any type put a smile on my face)

And that's about it. It's going to be a good week and I'll be expecting at least a 3lb loss next week. You will of course be kept informed.

Oh - Can you tell which of these two breakfasts is mine and which was Gavin's this morning?

And my article was published there two Sunday's back. I will hopefully get it scanned in and up here in the next few days - it's trying to fit the thing into my scanner, the one in uni confuses me.
I also want to finish drafting a post on attitudes, something that I wanted to post today, but then the gain took over my topic.
And I photographed a recipe which I promised to post too.
So as long as uni doesn't interfere, I should get some things posted over the next wee while!

 

Sarah xx

 

As a side note, anyone know how to move a blog from here (posterous) to blogger? I know I can set posterous up to update blogger, just thinking of moving all together. Posterous is too tempremental for me.